I'm scared that I won't have enough love to give both of my children...
I'm scared that Abigail will feel left out when the baby gets here...
I'm scared that Baby Boy Baucom will feel he he drew the short straw cause he got here second...
I'm scared that I won't be prepared for his arrival...
I'm scared that I won't be able to handle having two children...
I'm scared that there's not enough of me to fill both of their needs...
I'm scared that Matthew and I will have trouble finding time for us...
I'm scared that the only thing we will have time to talk about once the baby gets here is our children...
I'm scared that something will happen to one of the children that I worked so hard to get here safe and healthy...
I'm scared that something will happen to Matthew, leaving me alone...
Mainly, I'm scared of everything right now.
This goes away, right??
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Dear Edamame
Hi there sweet baby!
I am so very excited about your impending arrival, even if I still have to wait another 25 weeks to meet you. Daddy, Abigail and I will patiently wait for you. Stay in there as long as needed for you to get here. Please don't come early like your big sister did.
When Daddy and I found out you were coming we were surprised, but happier than you can even imagine. We know you're the puzzle piece that has been missing from our sweet family without us even knowing it. We absolutely adore you already and haven't even gotten to see your sweet face yet.
You big sister is already the best big sister there's ever been. She is so excited about all the things she's going to get to teach you. You probably already know this, but she talks to you every night. She is actually the one that named you Edamame. She is so silly.
We have had some great times, you and I. I'm thankful the "pukies" have left us behind. Thanks for that. It makes mommy very happy to have an appetite again.
Thank you baby, for choosing me and Daddy. We already feel so lucky to be your parents.
I love you more than you know,
Mommy
I am so very excited about your impending arrival, even if I still have to wait another 25 weeks to meet you. Daddy, Abigail and I will patiently wait for you. Stay in there as long as needed for you to get here. Please don't come early like your big sister did.
When Daddy and I found out you were coming we were surprised, but happier than you can even imagine. We know you're the puzzle piece that has been missing from our sweet family without us even knowing it. We absolutely adore you already and haven't even gotten to see your sweet face yet.
You big sister is already the best big sister there's ever been. She is so excited about all the things she's going to get to teach you. You probably already know this, but she talks to you every night. She is actually the one that named you Edamame. She is so silly.
We have had some great times, you and I. I'm thankful the "pukies" have left us behind. Thanks for that. It makes mommy very happy to have an appetite again.
Thank you baby, for choosing me and Daddy. We already feel so lucky to be your parents.
I love you more than you know,
Mommy
Friday, November 26, 2010
Vacation...Part 2...Disney World
(See Vacation...Part 1 here)
On Monday morning we woke up and had breakfast with Nana. After that, we hopped in the car and headed to the happiest place on Earth...Disney World!!!! It took about an hour to get from Nana Jane's to our hotel. We checked in and got settled in our room and then headed off to the Magic Kingdom.
The first ride we came to was the Teacups. That is one of my favorites of all time!! It was a little busier that Matthew and I had anticipated, so we had to wait in line. Miss Abigail was none too excited about this, as evidenced in this picture:
She hammed for the camera a bit more:
Met Donald Duck (and many other characters):
And went to Epcot:
We had the best time with her and cannot WAIT to do it again!!!
On Monday morning we woke up and had breakfast with Nana. After that, we hopped in the car and headed to the happiest place on Earth...Disney World!!!! It took about an hour to get from Nana Jane's to our hotel. We checked in and got settled in our room and then headed off to the Magic Kingdom.
The first ride we came to was the Teacups. That is one of my favorites of all time!! It was a little busier that Matthew and I had anticipated, so we had to wait in line. Miss Abigail was none too excited about this, as evidenced in this picture:
Once it was our turn, Abigail turned in to a happy camper again!!!!
We had the best time with her in Disney World. I don't think words can describe the fun enough, so I'll just end this with pictures of our trip! :)
She got her face painted:
Drove a car with her daddy:
Rode Dumbo with me:
Stood in lots of lines:
Rode a carousel with daddy:
She loved on her Daddy and hammed for the Camera:
She met Mommy's favorite Disney characters:
Posed for family pictures:
She met princesses:
She hammed for the camera a bit more:
Met Donald Duck (and many other characters):
And went to Epcot:
We had the best time with her and cannot WAIT to do it again!!!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Vacation...Part 1
At the end of September, Matthew, Abigail and I went on our very first family vacation!! It was FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We left on Friday, the 17th and drove down to Florida. We spent 3 nights with Matthew's grandmother, Nana Jane. We'll call that Part 1 of our "Floridian Vacation."
We arrived on Friday evening at Nana Jane's house. Matthew's great aunt drove up from Tampa to spend the weekend with us, and was already there. Abigail ADORES Auntie and Nana Jane, so she COULD NOT WAIT to get there.
When we arrived, Aunt Lu & Uncle Bill came to Nana's house and we all went out for a steak dinner. It was delicious!!!!!! While we were trying to decide what we wanted, Abigail got a hold of my camera and took some pictures.
I'm sure Auntie would love this one.
On Saturday morning, we woke up and went to a tasty breakfast at Denny's and then had a golf cart tour of The Villages. Our tour guide, Abigail, was sure to provide us with pictures of the trip.
On Saturday evening, after a DELICIOUS dinner at Carrabba's, we went to play mini golf. Everytime Abigail visits Nana, they go mini golfing. It has become something that she looks forward to each time she visits her. Abigail may not have a future in golf, but I'm sure she'll be a killer hockey player based on how well she scoots the ball into the hole.
On Sunday morning we woke up early, had some Perkins for breakfast and then headed to Silver Springs. This is a state park (I think) that is surrounded by BEAUTIFUL springs. They have glass bottom boat rides, a carousel and lots of other fun stuff to do. There are lots of alligators and crocodiles. Abigail made us laugh so hard when she "taunted" the Gators with her Daddy's Hurricanes hat, because the Canes don't like Gators. It was the neatest place. Abigail had a blast riding in the boats.
Meet Beary Fluffy Baucom....Abigail's new baby.
Thank you so much, Nana Jane. We had a wonderful time with you and cannot WAIT to visit again.
Stay tuned for Vacation...Part 2...Disney World
We arrived on Friday evening at Nana Jane's house. Matthew's great aunt drove up from Tampa to spend the weekend with us, and was already there. Abigail ADORES Auntie and Nana Jane, so she COULD NOT WAIT to get there.
When we arrived, Aunt Lu & Uncle Bill came to Nana's house and we all went out for a steak dinner. It was delicious!!!!!! While we were trying to decide what we wanted, Abigail got a hold of my camera and took some pictures.
I'm sure Auntie would love this one.
On Saturday morning, we woke up and went to a tasty breakfast at Denny's and then had a golf cart tour of The Villages. Our tour guide, Abigail, was sure to provide us with pictures of the trip.
On Saturday evening, after a DELICIOUS dinner at Carrabba's, we went to play mini golf. Everytime Abigail visits Nana, they go mini golfing. It has become something that she looks forward to each time she visits her. Abigail may not have a future in golf, but I'm sure she'll be a killer hockey player based on how well she scoots the ball into the hole.
On Sunday morning we woke up early, had some Perkins for breakfast and then headed to Silver Springs. This is a state park (I think) that is surrounded by BEAUTIFUL springs. They have glass bottom boat rides, a carousel and lots of other fun stuff to do. There are lots of alligators and crocodiles. Abigail made us laugh so hard when she "taunted" the Gators with her Daddy's Hurricanes hat, because the Canes don't like Gators. It was the neatest place. Abigail had a blast riding in the boats.
Meet Beary Fluffy Baucom....Abigail's new baby.
Thank you so much, Nana Jane. We had a wonderful time with you and cannot WAIT to visit again.
Stay tuned for Vacation...Part 2...Disney World
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Every mile a memory......
When I was younger, as soon as school was out for the summer, my grandparents would hop in their giant van and make the 15 hour trek from New Jersey to Georgia. They would stay for a few days and then pack my sister, brother and me into the van and we would set off on our adventure back to New Jersey. They had the patience of saints.
The three of us would argue like cats and dogs and Nana and Pop would just sit and listen. Also, mediate when necessary. Some of my fondest childhood memories of are those car trips every summer. There were the old songs that we knew all the words to cause Nana and Pop played the tapes. There were the detours through the Appalachian mountains. Pop still teases me because he knows every rest area between Georgia and New Jersey because of me.
We would spend the entire summer with them. I looked forward to the time with them every year. Sure, I missed my parents, but couldn't be sad because I was with my amazing grandparents getting spoiled. Nana would cook us anything we wanted, and man what a good cook she was.
With the summer of sadness we've had winding to a close, I am even more appreciative of all the time we got to spend with them.
It tears my heart to pieces knowing I'll never be able to pick up the phone and talk to Nana again; that Abigail won't get any summers with Nana and Pop like I did. She is so very lucky to have gotten the time she did with Nana. Most children don't get to know their great grandparents. Abigail has 5, well 4 now, that she sees on a fairly regular basis.
And, while Abigail doesn't get actual PHYSICAL time with Nana June, I'm convinced she's never far from Abigail's side. Abigail has conversations with her everytime she's in the car. It seems like car trips are going to give her some Nana memories after all. It's just more proof that they have a very special bond that not even death can break.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Forever in our hearts...
As I've mentioned before , Abigail is named after my grandmother.
This past Thursday I flew to New Jersey to be with my family. Nana had been very sick. 2 and a half weeks before, she had a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital. After a very hard fight, she passed away on Friday, August 13, 2010.
She was surrounded by her husband and children when she passed. We all, my brother, sister, cousin and I, all got to have a few moments with her to say our goodbyes.
I miss her with every fiber of my being, but I know she's looking out for me. Heaven has gained an incredible angel.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life, but I am so glad I was able to be there.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Ten
1 proposal.
1 wedding for us.
7 weddings of people we love.
10 Christmases.
1 apartment.
1 house.
3 different addresses.
1 mailbox run over.
4 cars.
3 beds.
3 couches.
4 different schools.
2 graduations.
6 TV’s.
3 surgeries.
1 hospital stay.
2 emergency room visits.
24 birthdays.
1 pregnancy.
1 beautiful baby girl.
1 speeding ticket.
3 accidents.
150 lbs. gained.
60 lbs. lost.
11 in-laws.
1 nephew.
2 nieces.
3 computers.
1 cruise.
1 trip to Vegas.
7 phone numbers.
315,360,000 seconds.
5,256,000 minutes.
3,650 days.
520 weeks.
120 months.
10 years.
1 wedding for us.
7 weddings of people we love.
10 Christmases.
1 apartment.
1 house.
3 different addresses.
1 mailbox run over.
4 cars.
3 beds.
3 couches.
4 different schools.
2 graduations.
6 TV’s.
3 surgeries.
1 hospital stay.
2 emergency room visits.
24 birthdays.
1 pregnancy.
1 beautiful baby girl.
1 speeding ticket.
3 accidents.
150 lbs. gained.
60 lbs. lost.
11 in-laws.
1 nephew.
2 nieces.
3 computers.
1 cruise.
1 trip to Vegas.
7 phone numbers.
315,360,000 seconds.
5,256,000 minutes.
3,650 days.
520 weeks.
120 months.
10 years.
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